This loving and committed couple have chosen mutually to adhere to their domestic discipline relationship, and she is their chosen Head of Household. It is her considered opinion to which I defer…that the situation warrants the intervention of a third party who is not invested emotionally in the circumstances.
for me, I have asked for and received an appointment with Miss Kane during her
upcomint travel to NYC. While normally this would be cause for
excitement, it is for me an unfortunate event. Instead of looking forward to some
fun role playing with Miss Kane or enjoying some OTK time with her, I am going to
see her to receive a much needed punishment for some real life infractions. My behavior
over the last year has been very poor and is deserving of a severe punishment. While I
am in a committed and loving FLDD relationship with my wife, we have discussed
the need for and the possibility of finding an impartial disciplinarian who is not
hindered by any emotional attachment to deliver a severe punishment for my past
behavior. I made a comment about Miss Kane coming to NYC and maybe we could
get her to administer my punishment. That simple comment led to the exchanging of
a few e-mails which ultimately led to an appointment with Miss Kane. So now I
find myself nervously waiting for an upcoming punishment administered by Miss Kane.
What I thought was just an off handed comment that had no chance of actually
happening has turned into a reality. My wife has told me very clearly that I do not
have a choice about going and that I WILL keep this appointment. What follows are
my thoughts leading up to the fateful day when I receive my punishment from Miss Kane.
Well I am 15 days out from my visit with Miss Kane, I got up this morning determined
that I would not spend any time today dwelling on the upcoming visit. I have tried to
keep my mind occupied throughout the day and not think about what the visit will be
like, but I have not been very successful. I can only play a mental picture of
the session in my head so many times before I drive myself crazy.
Since I have never had a session with Miss Kane before I have nothing to base my
thoughts on other than the few videos I have seen on her blog. While I am nervous
about my actual visit, I am even more nervous about the impending phone call that Miss
Kane will make to my wife to discuss my upcoming punishment. I do not know when
she will call, all I know is that she is going to E-mail my wife before she calls so they
can set up a time to talk (I hope it is not when I am at work). I don’t even know if my
wife will let me know if or when she talks with Miss Kane. After they talk I am
expecting an E-mail to verify our appointment, I don’t know if it will be a short, brief
and to the point E-mail, or maybe a longer one with some scolding added for good
measure. Who knows, all I know is it will make me even more nervous about my visit.
Maybe tomorrow I will do a better job with not thinking about the upcoming visit …
But then again probably not.